A quiet GOOD MORNING!!! to you all! Yup, Spousal Support Unit and Newbie left with Genetic Donor In-law (mother in law) to celebrate Newbie’s big 8th Birthday! Leaving me and the voices in my head to ponder…how to take over the world!
Free For All Friday Ed-vise today. Cause it’s FRIDAY (thank gawd)! OPEN MAT; PIZZA NIGHT!
Been a heavy last several days.
Started out with the “tapping out” of one of my hero’s.
She battled so hard over the last four or five years with breast cancer. Someone that I have been blessed to have in my life for around 37 years. She was my aunt. Just a couple years younger than I am.
I did get to see her and hug her probably two weeks before she tapped. If I didn’t know what I knew I would not have known she was that far along. She looked so beautiful; her mind all there; her smile; all of her red hair. Then, saw her the day before. She slept. Her left foot was laying out in the open air. I wrapped my hand around it as it was all I could “hug.” I bowed my head and whispered “I will miss you.”
And then we left.
I am not sad that she tapped. Every single one of us has our point when we call it. I am not anyone to judge anyone when a person calls it.
What I am sad for and that I shed a tear for is that I will miss her. And I will regret not having sat with her more.
While I will miss her, she blessed me by leaving behind three beautiful children that all carry a piece of her with them. That little bit of Michelle that I can sit with and savor. And when I turn my head just right, I can see Michelle’s smile or her eyes. THAT does my heart good.
Go ahead and sit this round out Michelle. You fought so hard; you fought so brave; you’ve been through so much. Take a breather. We’ll take it from here.
That, my friends, was really hard to write.
THEN…after celebrating the life of my hero, my little family didn’t want her to go alone, so we sent our Angel with her.
Angel was our family dog. Mind you I always did and always will refer to her as a pseudo dog i.e., not a real dog. But, she always thought she was a dog and so did the rest of the family. So, by a majority vote…she was a dog.
That dog had been with this family for a long time. I remember her coming home and the kids just being so happy that they had a “dog.” I just shook my head because…well…you know.
Still, that didn’t mean she didn’t have a special place in this family. She took care of them while I was gone. Snuggled with all of them; even licked a tear or two from them. I know she sat with Spousal Support Unit for many nights.
Not that I regret not sitting with her, it’s just that, she was part of the family and there were little things that she did that just let everyone know Angel was here. Especially her angry bark when we came home from walking to school and how disappointed she was with us because she thought we abandoned her. Sounded like a smokers cough than bark. Her goofy underbite; her fake seizures.
Still, that was Angel.
So, Michelle, if you see Angel turn in circles and look like she’s gonna have a seizure, look around for a fly. Her real seizures occur when she sees a fly.
I’m just saying
That’s it for today. PLEASE take care of yourselves and PLEASE get screened. Check in on each other and remember to return the animal crackers box especially if the…SEAL IS BROKEN! BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
Peace
Ed-vise 