Ed-vise: Waiting

A Cowboy Surfer GOOD MORNING!!! to you all! Yup, Cowboy Surfer. It’s a little hole in the wall, greasy spoon here in Corona by the Safeway on Ontario Ave. They have one hell of a breakfast that I had yesterday. “Stick to the bones” sausage gravy…mmmm-mmmm!

Free For All Friday Ed-vise today. Cause it’s FRIDAY! No OPEN MAT (bummer); PIZZA NIGHT!

Nope, Pops STILL has not passed on. STILL.

And it sucks…the waiting.

I guess you could say it’s a bit like in the movies with a sad “good-bye” to the dying. Thing is, for this situation, it’s the same scene over and over and over.

I’ve waited for things in my time. You can bet that my time in the military made me very good at “Hurry Up and Wait” exercises. Those are the type where someone of importance yells out “EMERGENCY!” Then, everyone comes running out of the barracks. Gets into formation…and waits. No clue why. Just stands there and waits.

Weapons cleaning was another. We would spend HOURS of our lives with a clean AR-15 rifle in our laps going back and forth over it with a rag to make it look like we were cleaning it. Just sitting there. Rubbing our rifle with a rag. Waiting on…don’t know what.

I once waited 3 days in a large airstrip tent for a helicopter ride to go 20 miles when I was in Iraq. Why? I didn’t want to ride down one of the most IED infested roads in Baghdad.

Waited on my kids to be born; waited to buy tickets to see Empire Strikes Back in a movie theatre. I’ve waited for paint to dry and grass to grow. I’ve even waited on my granny who one time told me she would be along in like 30 minutes that morning only to have her show up at sundown. She (and her son and her daughter) have ZERO CONCEPT of time.

I have never had to wait for something like this.

Did you ever have a dream where you felt like you were running and not going anywhere?

That’s what this feels like. Like I want to do something (don’t know what) but there really is nothing I can do. So, I end up pacing. Pacing and staring at the lavender pants my mom has in the back yard. She has 6. Looking at the leaves on her poinsettia (apparently they don’t just grow in Hawaii). Scrolling to the end of the internet to see how fast I can get to the other end.

“Soon” they say. I’ll believe that when “Soon” happens.

I’m just saying

That’s it for today. Take care of yourselves. Check in on each other and remember whenever you eat food coloring you…DYE A LITTLE INSIDE! HAHAHAHHAHAHA…dye a little…(tear).


Published by edhlaw

Son, husband, father, uncle, nephew, cousin

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